moving, but not very fast

Hey friends,

Life is fairly hard at the moment. Facing some battles and the odds are not very favourable. Something I wrote yesterday pretty much sums up how it is at the moment. Hope you are well.

"...because we're all in this together,
just like the sunshine in bad weather,
so grab my hand and let's walk until we fall."
-JAJ

different words make different sentences

"A glass without the liquid,
a cup without the spoon,
a cloud without it’s raindrops,
a sky without it’s moon.

A swing with no playground,
a bucket with no sand,
a truck with no icecream,
will they ever understand?

A frame without a picture,
a body without a soul,
a picture without the story,
a life that isn’t whole.

She sits and waits,
he walks and talks.
If there's a message in the air,
can you please pass me the chalk?

Some people have to know the beginning,
while others are happy to wait.
The pieces on our board are moving...

I think it’s time to separate." -JAJ

what happens when the light turns green?

"...red lights, they ask us to stop,
but who chooses when we are ready to go?

what if the light changes and i need more time?
what if i don't move and i 'cause a long line?

isn't every person different?
aren't we all moving at our own pace?
what's all the hurry about?


...i just need 5 more minutes." -JAJ

count to 20, here i come

green floors
purple doors
people hiding
people hiding

red cars
blue bars
people hiding
people hiding

black moon
silver spoon
people hiding
people hiding

lah lah lah lah
lah lah lah lah
lah lah lah lah
lah lah lah lah

one more coffee
one more chance
one more moment
one more dance

i'll risk everything
to see you one more time
i'll give everything for you, for you

lah lah lah lah
lah lah lah lah
lah lah lah lah
lah lah lah lah

-JAJ

words.

"We all say that we all know the perfect thing to say,
but then we open our mouths." -JAJ

i was sitting at the same table, but saw something new

"Silver pattern, I found your reflection,
but it's nothing like a mirror.

Coat goes on, red purse comes out.
Money exchanged, manners too.

Boots that create footsteps,
as movement passes through the door.

Life moves on too.

Gone, gone, gone.

And you were different than before,
but life doesnt change so much anymore." -JAJ

i was chasing my own reflection to see what i could see

"...tapping my fingers to the beat,
but i only see a fragment of the rhythm.
is that something you understand?
cause i don't like hearing the words i don't like.
admit to it, i love honesty.
help me please. i am confused.
confusion, i made it harder.
love is a beautiful word.
but words aren't everything in love.
i see the truth, i don't believe it.
music meets me in the middle." -JAJ

staring at the wall can reveal so many things

"...wallpaper layered again and again,
it doesn't appear i will see the end.
but that's something we can do,
cover our mistakes with paper and glue.
so many times i'd love to forget,
erase that moment, hit the button 'reset'." -JAJ

i hope you're ready for that.

"Putting your life on the line for the truth
means realising you may have to die for it." -JAJ

change.

"Sometimes in our lives we ask for change
and don't realise how much we really need it." -JAJ

addictions.

ADDICTIONS: Who's in control?

Speaking from personal experience, it's really hard to get control over the addiction when every other day you are allowing it to control you. I really believe that every single person has atleast one thing they are addicted to, some of those people can measure it and keep it safe, others have more trouble.

It's a constant struggle that takes more than one day to cure. Most importantly, don't do it alone. Ask for help. Realise from day one that it will most likely never be completely in check, but something you have to re-check regularly.


Keep your chin up, and please take care.
JAJ

walking the same way, but sometimes facing a mirror

"there's so many people walking,
all walking the wrong way,
opposite to those who are right, right?

but what is right?

to assume that you are always right,
does that make you right,

or does that make you wrong?

someone has to be right,
but who decides who that someone will be?

what happens if we choose someone who we think is right,
and we turn out to be wrong?????" -JAJ

smash smash, trash trash

"smash, smash, that will need to go in the trash.
sorry guys, it's my first day. - you know what it's like.
are you ok?

voices came crowding in, but nobody moved at all.
do i need to write in on the wall? - i don't they get it.

where's the aid, who will be first? - i can only assume the worst.
isn't that the way the world works? - innocent till proven guilty.
no wait! - i messed that up.

and that is how this started right?
because somebody made a mistake.
or was it a mistake to believe that somebody
would not make a mistake?

what's a mistake?

i wonder if all these words should be thrown in the bin?" -JAJ

until the light breaks through

Hey friends,

Sometimes it can seem as if the night is going to last forever, it can seem as if the morning light has been captured and we're not sure how long it's going to be before we will be rescued by it's beauty and refreshing spirit.

In life we go through trials like that, we face giants that seem so big and mighty that we don't think we're ever going to knock them over to see what's beyond. Just like you I have giants that try to hold me back and stop me from moving forward into the light.

I don't have the answer to this puzzle, but I know one thing is for sure, the light always come again. Sometimes it will take what seems like forever and so much more, but morning light will come again. It will be unbelievable! Keep your head up high and keep placing one foot in front of the other.

We're going to make it!

"Move through the darkness to face the light, because we both know it's worth the journey to be on the other side." -JAJ

the reaction of an action

a poem i wrote inspired by a moment in the hallway...

"she makes her place in the hallway,
basking in the light that comes flooding,
from the hot yellow circle up in the sky,
this is the moment she wants to be.

flash memory corners her peaceful mind,
beginning of aroma that will hold control,
can i just surpass this crazy excited feeling?
i need to know what it could be untouched.

she's praying for sleep as her eyes start to close,
i don't understand why we still fight for identity,
the mirror reflects image and tracks her dreaming,
hold one moment, i don't remember that day.

once a silent frame that never remembered why,
began the mystery that could unlock the tear she cry,
ice moves slowly down the wall of forgotten beauty,
say goodbye to everything for the last time
rock me in your grip as we fade into this
loving memory."
-JAJ

Car Trip.

Green field. Brown dirt.
Happy face. Messy shirt.
Whatever happened to our perfect picture of life?
What happened to the perect picture of us?

I miss the danger. Where's the stranger?
Please take me down the dark alley.
I wanna feel the barbed wire fence.

Talk calmly.
Stay forever and one more moment.
Play me two more songs.
And give me the chance to listen.
I need five more times to be wrong.
I'll mess even that up.
Drive past at a million miles.
And don't forget to stay for awhile.
Love me quickly. Leave me slowly.

This can't be the end, the end of it all.
I've forgotten who I am.
I don't even see who you are.
Where have we been taken?
I think they left us behind.
So many people in a crowded room,
and I just pray you're coming very soon.
I'll be waiting where you found me.
That's where I'll be waiting... -JAJ