change.

"Sometimes in our lives we ask for change
and don't realise how much we really need it." -JAJ

addictions.

ADDICTIONS: Who's in control?

Speaking from personal experience, it's really hard to get control over the addiction when every other day you are allowing it to control you. I really believe that every single person has atleast one thing they are addicted to, some of those people can measure it and keep it safe, others have more trouble.

It's a constant struggle that takes more than one day to cure. Most importantly, don't do it alone. Ask for help. Realise from day one that it will most likely never be completely in check, but something you have to re-check regularly.


Keep your chin up, and please take care.
JAJ

walking the same way, but sometimes facing a mirror

"there's so many people walking,
all walking the wrong way,
opposite to those who are right, right?

but what is right?

to assume that you are always right,
does that make you right,

or does that make you wrong?

someone has to be right,
but who decides who that someone will be?

what happens if we choose someone who we think is right,
and we turn out to be wrong?????" -JAJ

smash smash, trash trash

"smash, smash, that will need to go in the trash.
sorry guys, it's my first day. - you know what it's like.
are you ok?

voices came crowding in, but nobody moved at all.
do i need to write in on the wall? - i don't they get it.

where's the aid, who will be first? - i can only assume the worst.
isn't that the way the world works? - innocent till proven guilty.
no wait! - i messed that up.

and that is how this started right?
because somebody made a mistake.
or was it a mistake to believe that somebody
would not make a mistake?

what's a mistake?

i wonder if all these words should be thrown in the bin?" -JAJ

until the light breaks through

Hey friends,

Sometimes it can seem as if the night is going to last forever, it can seem as if the morning light has been captured and we're not sure how long it's going to be before we will be rescued by it's beauty and refreshing spirit.

In life we go through trials like that, we face giants that seem so big and mighty that we don't think we're ever going to knock them over to see what's beyond. Just like you I have giants that try to hold me back and stop me from moving forward into the light.

I don't have the answer to this puzzle, but I know one thing is for sure, the light always come again. Sometimes it will take what seems like forever and so much more, but morning light will come again. It will be unbelievable! Keep your head up high and keep placing one foot in front of the other.

We're going to make it!

"Move through the darkness to face the light, because we both know it's worth the journey to be on the other side." -JAJ

the reaction of an action

a poem i wrote inspired by a moment in the hallway...

"she makes her place in the hallway,
basking in the light that comes flooding,
from the hot yellow circle up in the sky,
this is the moment she wants to be.

flash memory corners her peaceful mind,
beginning of aroma that will hold control,
can i just surpass this crazy excited feeling?
i need to know what it could be untouched.

she's praying for sleep as her eyes start to close,
i don't understand why we still fight for identity,
the mirror reflects image and tracks her dreaming,
hold one moment, i don't remember that day.

once a silent frame that never remembered why,
began the mystery that could unlock the tear she cry,
ice moves slowly down the wall of forgotten beauty,
say goodbye to everything for the last time
rock me in your grip as we fade into this
loving memory."
-JAJ

Car Trip.

Green field. Brown dirt.
Happy face. Messy shirt.
Whatever happened to our perfect picture of life?
What happened to the perect picture of us?

I miss the danger. Where's the stranger?
Please take me down the dark alley.
I wanna feel the barbed wire fence.

Talk calmly.
Stay forever and one more moment.
Play me two more songs.
And give me the chance to listen.
I need five more times to be wrong.
I'll mess even that up.
Drive past at a million miles.
And don't forget to stay for awhile.
Love me quickly. Leave me slowly.

This can't be the end, the end of it all.
I've forgotten who I am.
I don't even see who you are.
Where have we been taken?
I think they left us behind.
So many people in a crowded room,
and I just pray you're coming very soon.
I'll be waiting where you found me.
That's where I'll be waiting... -JAJ